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Mar 8, 2010

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ARRG! staying at home during the holidays is boring, when it's boring, i start thinking abt useless things...

msn/facebook/dota is the only thing left to pass time, but still, it's not fun playing alone at either facebook or dota.. SOOOOO.. my last way of doing things was to msn..

i always find it hard to start a conversation with anyone since i don't know wat to say .. i envy ppl who are always able to start a conversation with someone and manage to make the conversation last for a long time.. i'm jealous of ppl with the ability to do that..

a lot of different feelings is gather up inside my brain, too much free time is not a good thing, i miss the time when we were in school busy for watever i'm busy for even though i didnt do much work..

i like seeing ppl chit chatting, even if i'm not in the conversation, i don know how to say it, but, seeing ppl chit chatting make me feels that at least, there are chances that i can listen to the conversation and eventually join in and talk.. yet i'm afraid of doing that, somehow, coincidence or wat, everytime i cut into a conversation, the chat will like become a dead chat. i hate this and i wan to change it, but how?? it's not something that can be change that easily, it's not something that can be learned over night, it's 1 of the many thing in life that ppl can't get even if they did put in effort...

Full of mixed feelings

i'm amazed with myself that even normal conversation can also make me emotional...

i hate holidays with nothing to do
i hate certain of my current life
so much more...

little note for myself! don get too emoing! nite all!!!

3/08/2010 05:02:00 AM;

Mar 5, 2010

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didnt get to post last nite after grad nite, since i'm lyk so free now.. decided to come and blog abt the happening since i don see any1 posting it either.. LOL...

grad nite was at shangrila hotel(if that the way to spell)

was suppose to meet adi at 4.15, but, need to go get stuff at town, in the end... was late, after seeing kelly's sms saying that at 4.30 she haven reach the place for her make up, i got another reason to be late so that adi cannot blame me XD

from then, went on to meet chris, was shocked to see the golden necklace, plus his outfit, totally suitable to be a gangster boss lor.. and finally, to meet kelly at bugis.. LOL.. told her taxi stand, but! forgotten that there are actually two taxi stand at bugis and the OMG taxi driver uncle, told him waiting for fren, he went ahead and stop the meter, from which part does "waiting for fren" seems lyk we don have a next destination to go to.. totally spoil mood...

kelly after make up was even more WOW thn usual, super thick blusher, face lyk monkey butt XD

the hotel is so big and grand!! 1st time going over there and the toilet there are OMG... it's bigger thn my bedroom.. way bigger.. LOL.. actually i think most toilet are bigger then my room?? but who cares.. LOL..

we tot that we were actually very early considering that the meeting time is at 6 and we reach at 5.40, but, there are really many kia su ppl that reach so much earlier thn us(i don mean those organizers).

those of us that reach earlier was lyk stuck with nothing to do, not knowing that we can actually go to have our drinks and go to the different station like tarrot card reading and cartoon drawing etc, we have no choice but to actually go and tour the toilet of the hotel while finding ppl that we know to talk to..

went to draw the cartoon version of me, the person draw a super big nose for me lor!!! DO I HAVE A BIG NOSE?? i don think so lor.. hahaha, but the picture is funny la.. however, the picture is don know with who now, after clubbing, the bag was not even taken by any1 i think.. lol.. despite the fact that some of the stuff in the bag is actually useful..

dinner's mc was great, he speak funny and really help to entertain us a lot, if it was the school's mc, i think the grad nite will be totally not worth it.. food was so so but the chicken was nice.. hahaha...
our table is cursed, out of the 10 ppl, only adi and eileen manage to get 5 movie ticket each at shaw house and the condition of using the ticket is so funny! valid only till the end of march AND!~! valid only from mon-wed don know b4 or after 5pm.. LOL.. no valid for sneak preview and etc.. might as well don't give.. lol. ok, i'm just jealous of not being able to get anything at all while some1(colborn sure know who he is) got so many... oh ya, not forgetting that i actually saw my secondary sch fren there and he said that eileen is chio(omg some1 sure very happy leh XD) and and! congratz ms kelly koh kai li for being the 2nd MOST(SEE CAREFULLY! IT'S MOST HOR!) best dress girl.. AND, I GOT HELP TO PICK HER STUFF ASO(HEHEH SHOWS THAT I GOT NOT BAD TASTE) i "won't" tell ben i saw u on stage use finger to pick guys 1 if i do see him at all.. =D

to be continue with clubbing, wait till i'm free to go facebook and save all the photo while trying to recall the things i did after getting sot.. LOL... enjoy reading this SUPER long post.. hahah

truth to be told, i'm a pot of vinegar, don make me more jealous of things than i'm alrdy am...

3/05/2010 05:47:00 AM;

Mar 2, 2010

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i need happy songs to cheer me up, emo egh as it is.. hahahha

today, went back to sch to return the useless lap top that the sch has borrowed me, should be thankful but! the lap top is really cmi.. take so much money from student yet, the lap top they loan is so useless, lol...

ytd, went out to town and shop for grad nite stuff at town, tiring but fun hahahaha.. saw so many familiar faces at town all busy with getting their grad nite stuff while some was working at the shops there..

unable to buy things due to the budget constrain, things that are nice are always so expensive, i hate the world of branded stuff.. LOL..

went around the whole orchard, ION, WISMA, taka and etc.. totally leg aching from all the walking to and from these places. after kelly manage to get her dress for the nite, it was alrdy around 6-7pm, colborn and eileen went back home, while kelly being kind egh, knowing that i really need to get a pair of shoes for the nite, she and me head down to far east since things there are cheaper and more economically for me to buy.

over at fareast, went around from level to level, manage to find a belt that i like, but didn't get it since the color that i want was not available. while shoe hunting was easier, so many shops over at far east is selling shoes for guys. while at fareast, saw wei xian and his girl at fareast, such a small world, to think that we were able to meet so many frens in such a short time at town..

head back to ion to search for kelly's high heels... walk around and around, it's hard to get a pair of high heels that is WOW and yet u will be able to dance wearing that and not hurting ur feets.. kelly even managed to meet her idol and act as a stalker walking in front of his stall back and forth X4... finally with the 5th time walking back, she finally have the courage to ask him to take photo.. LOL...

shopping is fun, but the after effect of shopping is not... LOL..

thinking that i'm a jerk

thinking that i'm stupid

thinking of things that i should have stop thinking a long time ago

3/02/2010 01:05:00 AM;